"Nothing will ever become of her."
- Siddhi Ma
- May 5
- 2 min read
Updated: May 6
Those were the words that fell from my aunt's lips as she spoke to our neighbor.
The “her” was me—a 7-year-old girl, living in the emotional ruins of a home shattered by war, where love was lost to liquor and weekends were swallowed by silence, bitterness, and the dull thud of broken spirits. My parents, carrying unspoken horrors and unhealed wounds, drank their memories away. And I watched.
Those words didn’t just echo—they etched themselves into my bones. But not in the way you might expect.
They awakened my inner rebel.
Rather than surrender to pity or fate, I vowed to prove her wrong. Not just her—but the whole world.
So I did what rebels do best: I defied. I challenged norms, questioned everything, and walked a path no one had paved for me. I wore my difference like armor. I wasn't just free—I was fiercely free. Or so I thought.
I fought so hard to not be like “them,” I didn’t realize I had built a new prison—one made of resistance. I was still defined by the very thing I was trying to escape. My rebellion, though loud and bold, wasn’t freedom. It was compulsion.
But it gave me something: purpose. Fuel. Fire. I became someone. I succeeded, I shared my gifts, I made noise in the world.
And then... I noticed the silence behind the applause.
That “somebody” I had become? She was still a character in a play written by pain.
So I walked off stage.
I left everything. I moved to the top of a mountain, on a continent where no one knew my name. I began the long descent into nobody-ness. It was brutal, lonely, humbling. I tried to reinvent myself, but each new version still echoed the old script.
Doubt crept in. Fear whispered. Maybe my aunt was right all along?
But no. The real truth took time. Six years of stillness, of not striving, of letting go.
And then, one day—I felt it.
Freedom.
Not the kind born of rebellion or reaction, but the quiet, steady kind. The kind that doesn’t need to become anything.
I had made peace with being “nobody.”
And in doing so, I became everything.
So today, I say: Thank you, Auntie. Your words were the wound—and the door.